The Most Liberating Thing I’ve Done All Year
I recently got my hair cut. A short, straight-across blunt cut. My hair stylist, at Level 23 Salon**, cut about 2-3 inches off of my hair, and I can honestly say that it’s the most liberating thing I’ve done all year. Here’s why.
My hair has never been very long (even though I’ve always wanted it to be). I’ve always had medium-length natural hair. I decided to start a hair journey a few years ago (you guys know I love journeys, lol). I was willing to do whatever it took to make my hair grow! I was taking hair vitamins (I even tried a miracle liquid vitamin drink), washing it consistently (even using the LOC method), not applying heat to it, wearing protective styles, and trying my best to keep it moisturized. Every other week, I would look in the mirror to track my growth. I was desperate for length but I never noticed that much of a difference. My hair definitely grew; it was just at a super slow rate, so I was NOT satisfied.
In hopes to make my hair grow even faster, I decided to stop applying heat to it at all. I didn’t blow dry or straighten my hair for over a year. I was wearing my hair in a bun almost every single day and wearing wigs on occasions where I needed a sleek look without using hot styling tools on my hair. I was always proud to say I was natural, but I NEVER wore my natural curls out. I never did twist-outs, braids or wash-and-go’s. This was because I simply did not like my hair down. It was an awkward length and I didn’t have bouncy curls like the other natural girls I’d see online. I wanted to be comfortable rocking my curls but, in my opinion, they were too lose and “unstylish”. Despite not straightening my hair for a long time, my ends were still very straight. (I know you might be wondering if this was due to having a relaxer. I’ve had a relaxer maybe once or twice when I was younger, but besides those two times, I have been natural for my entire life).
I used to hate going to the hair salon because a “trim” would always quickly turn into a cut! I wanted my hair to grow, so a cut was the last thing I wanted. The last time I went to the hair salon, I only asked for a trim (when I really needed more than that). So, she barely cut any hair off and I was unsatisfied with my hair yet again. That was in December. 9 months later, I decided I would go back to the hair salon, but this time I would actually get it cut.
Yesterday I got my hair cut and it was extremely freeing! The difference between my trip to the hair salon this time versus the other times, is that I was actually ready for a change! This time I was ready to face the scissors. My hair would constantly show the signs of needing to be cut: A LOT of shedding and thin and split ends. As my sister would say, I was “forcing my will”. I was trying to force my hair to appear to be long (by keeping those thin ends) instead of making sure that it looked and felt healthy. I mean, what was the point of me trying to keep it long anyway? It’s not like I was wearing it down!
All of these thoughts ran through my mind as I sat in the salon chair yesterday. I was 2% nervous and 98% excited! I was ready for a change and I did not want to look back. When my hair stylist was done cutting my hair and turned me around in the chair, I felt like a new woman! My head was much lighter and all that annoying, old hair was gone! All I could see was neck-length, full, healthy hair!
It has only been one day and I feel super confident with my new hair! Believe it or not, I am actually wearing it out right now! I finally feel comfortable wearing my hair down and I cannot wait to wash it and try natural styles now that my straight ends are gone!
Liberate: “to release (someone) from a state or situation that limits freedom of thought or behavior.”
THAT IS EXACTLY HOW I FELT WHEN MY HAIR WAS GONE! I literally felt liberated. I felt like my past frustrations with my hair were gone and, with that, I was free. My discomfort with wearing my hair down was gone. Feeling embarrassed to wear my natural curls was gone! I felt like I could start a fresh new day being completely confident in myself, unburdened with the embarrassment of wearing my hair in any other style besides a ponytail.
As I reflect, I know why I wanted long hair. It looks so beautiful on other girls and I knew if they could grow their hair out, I could too! But what I didn’t think about was the process that comes with it. Everyone’s hair is different and, unfortunately, my hair doesn’t grow like seaweed. However, now I know that that’s okay. I am so much happier with short hair and I’m not sure if I even want to grow it out now. I think I’m going to maintain this blunt cut for a while. It is a constant reminder of the liberation I felt as I saw all of my old hair fall to the ground (and it’s also super cute)!
If any of you are holding on to old hair (problems, stress, sadness, etc.), Please let it go! I guarantee that you will feel so much better! I am thrilled now that I cut my hair and I wish I had done it sooner. I’m a little upset that it took me this long to stop trying to force things with my hair, but I’m glad the day finally came.
As I’m getting older, I’m doing more things for myself like eating a cleaner diet, enhancing my relationship with God and trying things that I’ve been too scared to try in the past (cutting my hair being on of them). So far, it’s been going well. Cutting my hair was, undoubtedly, a crucial part of my journey to bettering myself.
No matter what type of hair you have, make sure you love it! If you’re like me and trying to force your hair to do something it just doesn’t want to do, don’t be scared to just let it go. We’re all different, and it’s important to celebrate those differences and accept yourself for who you are! Don’t ever try to be or look like someone else.
Let’s all go forth and rock our hair! However it may be!
**I always have a great experience when I go to Level 23 Salon! The salon owner and my stylist, Tenease, used her very own product line on my hair and it is literally so soft and bouncy. She used her Moisture Shampoo and Conditioner on me, but she has a lot of other great products that you should check out too! I’ll definitely be going back for my next haircut!
Have any of you struggled with your hair? Do you have any healthy hair tips? Let me know in the comments! Who else is #TeamShortHair?